I just turned 28 last monday. Woke up bright and early, opened my laptop and logged onto sametime. while waiting for the emails to download, I received a message from our customer. Nope it wasn't a birthday greeting, she was reporting an issue. Since I didn't have access to production called up SM to look into it. And as the morning progressed more markets started reporting problems. Thankfully by lunch everything was back to normal.
So how does it feel being a year older? wala lang. i guess as you get older, birthdays seem to become just like any other day. O baka dahil ayaw lang tanggapin na tumatanda na. hehehe. my gift to myself? secret! hahaha.
Now, i'm in one of my philosophical modes. asking myself is this what i really want to do? shempre paminsan-minsan kelangan din tumigil at mag-isip. actually it doesn't help that another person i know is resigning. naalala ko yung sabi ni Roch dati, at least sa Co. A may peaks and troughs. dito puro peak. on my end the past 2 months, work was relatively lighter. i should've been doing some research work for a paper but i got sick, and there were some issues popping here and there, plus all the extra-curriculars.
actually after the back-to-back releases, late last yr and early this yr, i was excited about work wanting to do more. then i received my annual performance review. that burst my bubble. i remember my conversation with tita jojo. given everything you've done last year and you'll just get a meets expectations don't kill yourself over work. ngayon nga parang na-wa-walan na ako ng gana magtrabaho. i have to muster enough passion for the things i do.
i'm not alone in that complaint, most of my colleagues are also overworked. but then that seems to be the norm in the IT industry. i guess i should count myself lucky that i have work that allows flexibility, gives access to a lot of resources, and pays ok. Thank you God for all the blessings that you've bestowed upon me. (and those around me)
on the other end of the spectrum. my grandmother goes back to Toronto on the 26th. Wish i could go back with her for vacation. but as it is now, i have to watch my budget. welcome to the real world where you have to pay bills, insurance, all-sorts of taxes, and mortgages. that should give me inspiration to quit complaining and haul my ass. hahahaha.
my, i guess i really am old. Salamat sa lahat ng nakaalala :)
An old post long forgotten... but upon Balqui's request, i'm posting it here... hehehehe.
Trust is a precious thing. I've always thought of myself as a trusting person and likewise a trustworthy one. Presumptuous of me, I know. However, I never thought that once that trust has been broken, even by the slightest offense, I’d have trouble trusting that person again. Vindictive, am I? Or maybe that’s too strong a word. I guess if I couldn’t trust that person with the little things, what more the big ones? I don’t know what that person could do to regain my trust, and I don’t know how I can get over the feeling of betrayal.
Today is Holy Thursday, as with tradition we're supposed to do Bisita Iglesia, to remember Christ's Stations of the Cross.
We started a bit late, leaving the house at 5pm. Instead of visiting 14 churches, we just went to 7. Pagdating namin dun medyo unprepared pa dahil wala kami yung booklet para sa Way of the Cross. Kaya sa Della Strada bumili kami. There were 2 versions. A bit confused I asked the vendor what the difference was. But she didn't give any reply, so I bought the one that seemed to be of better quality. This was actually the first time I'll be leading the way.
We started with the first 2 stations in Della Strada. Then we went to UP. We were looking for the 3rd station and wondered why it said on the booklet the Christ falls for the First Time while the station said Jesus before the Sanhedrin. Napa-what na lang ako.
So we bought the new version of the Stations of the Cross. Confident we went to the next station armed with the new booklet. Only to find that this Church still had the old Way of the Cross. Talk about frustration. The following stations we brought both versions with us.
Comedy di ba? If it wasn't so tragic I would find it funny. Maybe I wasn't listening well enough during our theology classes. (All 16 units of them) Kelan nangyari ang mga ito?!? Medyo nakakahiya lang. Dahil nananampalataya ako pero yun lang hindi ko alam. I know we're not expected to memorize the doctrine but at least be aware of them. Parang nung nadagdagan yung Mysteries of the Rosary. Medyo nagulat din ako nun. :(
Sometimes I feel like I'm a hypocrite. I don't think I even know how to pray any more. Maybe I've just grown lax. Ngayon nga parang hindi ko na nararamdaman na Mahal na Araw. For me it has become more of vacation time. I'm actually still looking for a chance to do some last minute trip to the beach. Nakakalungkot di ba? ewan ko ba. maybe i'm overanalyzing again. Pero dati sinusubukan ko talaga balikan ang mga pinagdaanan ni Kristo, at subukang unawain ang pagmamahal ng Diyos para sa atin. Ano nang nangyari dun? :(
Hotlegs had a reunion of sorts last March 23-24, 2007. At least those of us who are still in Manila, Manila. It's been 6 years since we've graduated and almost 10 years since we've all first met. The reason for the impromptu reunion was Roch's homecoming. Her officemates were generous enough to shoulder her airfare (SQ ito ha!) in exchange for being the ultimate tourist guide. Mashado kc ipinagmalaki ang shopping in da pilipins. Wish I had officemates like that. hehehe.
Amazing that not much has changed. Naghasik kami ng lagim sa Jack's Loft. We stayed for more than 5 hours, laughing our heads off... need proof? visit this: rochness, live in Manila - March 2007 Link
Di ba? mga nagpapakagago... Order in the Court! (nangharass ng waiter kc). All I remember is my abs got a great workout from laughing so hard. I got home around 130 am. Talagang pinilit ko pa lumabas kahit medyo masama na yung pakiramdam ko. Tapos tuluyan nang nagkasakit. At hanggang ngayon medyo kumakahol pa rin. Pero di ko pa rin ipapagpalit yun. Minsan na lang kami magkikitang mga magkakaibigan, and it's always great to see old friends :D
