i attended mass earlier at MTQ. usually announcements are made prior to giving the final blessing. it was a pleasant surprise when i heard them call a jesuit brother's name. brother eric, whom i met when i was in colion, along with brother pedro and andy. at that time he was just in his first year at the novitiate. now he's in front of this huge crowd encouraging us to attend a discernment seminar. (actually, the target audience are guys) as i was listening to him speak, even for a brief moment i was in awe. truly i could see God working through him.
i went to him after, and invited him to brunch. it's been a long time and well, i was also eager for news. luckily, he didn't have any other plans, and it is Sunday, so he had the day free. we went to ash creek and had brunch at pancake house. while waiting for the orders, i asked him what's up. i learned that he and brother andy were already juniorates, so it's back to hitting the books for him. brother pedro, who already took his vows and is in his regency is currently in china. he also asked how mommy was. yes, my lola had the three of them nipping at her heels. she gained 3 boyfriends in the week that we were there.
i am amazed by people who are so sure of what their calling is. this guy is younger than i am, yet he knows that this is what God has planned for him. Actually, asked him about that and he just says that he is happy. funny how God works. i would not have imagined the guy speaking in front of me was the same person who addressed the congregation. as he said, sometimes he also asks himself what he's doing here. and sometimes he can't imagine doing what he's doing.
hay. i miss that. i miss having an apostolate. i miss having prayer meetings every friday. i miss having a community that supports me. totoo ang sabi nila. it's difficult to have that regimen of prayer if the discipline has not been instilled in you. i was a pretty active atscan in college. but now, with the hectic schedules, all i can do is have a short conversation with God. parang hi God, buhay pa ako. kaw kumusta ka na? ang daming mong inaasikaso ano? im sure it's a gazillion times more than what im preoccupied with. but you still have time for each of us.how do you do it? (parang suwail na anak yatang nakikipagusap. God forgive me) But i realized that praying the rosary helps. started to last year october. and trying to continue this year. it's difficult. especially since the taxi rides are much shorter to ortigas. hehe.
************************************************** anyway, after brunch, i headed to megamall. i was planning on buying some clothes for work. may clothing allowance kasi and might as well use it. i've never realized how much fun shopping could be. first i went to surplus shop.you can get some really great finds there for a fraction of the cost.so i left the store with a couple of shirts, then headed to black shop.i like their slacks but the prices are, well, steep. (kuripot ako e. kaya spending 2k on a pair of slacks is giving me heart attacks) but they are comfortable. e since buong araw din ako sa opisina di ba... might as well buy something im comfortable in.when i got there, i looked for rose (she was the one who assisted me the last time). to my dismay, learned that she's been transferred to galleria. anyway, i got this wonderful gay to assist me, josh. he's been quite helpful and gave me 15% off. sabi ko kasi dati yun yung binigay sa akin ni rose. shempre kelangan ng alteration. 250 friggin bucks to alter a pair of pants. i could have used that to buy another pair!
then i went to toby's. needed to buy a badminton racquet if i was gonna take badminton seriously.(wahahaha parang totoo... di na nga ako nakakabadminton e) i didn't like the one mark gave me way back. (he knows that) so i bought a prince nxg 85.this is one of the racquets that i've been looking at ever since. it's either that or a yonex.but they're expensive! got 10% off on that one. so after a few swipes, i was the proud owner of a new racquet. while waiting for it to be strung, i decided to look around. saw the cellphone and camera that i might buy. and a pair of diamond earrings! 50% off! hmm... this is getting to be a tad too expensive...
so i was able to stop myself from buying the high-ticket items. though, my credit card's still sizzling from the swipes it received.
Can you feel my frustration? Medyo hindi naman obvious di ba? hehehe. I never thought I would be the one who would advocate process improvement. I'm still on the observing stage. Feeling ko wala pa akong 'k' magsalita. But I'm itching to see some improvements. Even small ones. Yun lang nga, I don't know if it's appropriate for this setting. Let's just say that even if things may be a bit different in R&D (where I have planted my roots) a lot of concepts are applicable to IT. Heck. pare-pareho lang naman talaga e. In essence we all want to provide quality products to our customers right? Whether you're dev, qa, ba, I think we should have this commitment to quality. Masyado lang siguro akong idealistic. Pero hindi ba kaya talaga? I've experienced being QA - the frustrations on testing a product that is buggy, although if i may quote eric- "we bring you quality bugs", releasing a quality product(!?)-still the credit does go to the SEs for that, SE - yes, and given the same excuses why a product does not work, and indignation whenever there is a bug, what bug?!?, but the sense of accomplishment when you see somebody actually using what you've created, IT Support Specialist - hmm.. i'm still discovering what this means thoug. Of all the roles I've enjoyed designing and developing the most, but I am a QA Engineer at heart. Just hate the testing part, especially if it's the boring kind. namili pa e. hehe.
NOT! it's saturday and i'm still in the office. medyo lang, pinapatay ko na ba ang sarili ko? i'm still under the weather.. read: sick. since dec.23. man, at the rate i'm going i don't think i'll ever get well. on the average spent 13 hours/day in the office the past week. what a great way to start the new year. sigh. and i've already got a backlog of work. having trouble concentrating on the tasks at hand because, well, i'm sick. hay naku.
i know, i know. i should stop and rest and get well. how many times have i said that there's no use putting so many hours of work. but we've got this deadline next week. hopefully things will be a bit easier after that. though somehow i doubt it. let's see, i think i've already earned 6 cdo's but when oh when can i take them?!?
a friend is resigning from hogwarts. i can relate with her sentiments (and i've just been here a month!). best of luck! alam mo naman kung sino ka. kung nababasa mo itong blog na ito. hay. lungkot lang. pero sa ngayon, no regrets pa rin naman ako. don't know how long i'll be saying that.
hay naku. work-life balance? i think the scales have been thrown out the window.
i was thinking last year was such a dud. upon retrospect, it wasn't as bad as i thought.
let's see, started 2005 sick and in debt. got the colds (which is not too different from now)
in debt because i bought this piece of jewelry, which costed an arm and a leg. oh well, it is my birthstone. and i've been wanting to buy one for ages.
oh yes, i also bought a laptop. which again sent me straight to the poorhouse. but again. i've wanted to buy one for the longest time. and then hogwarts gives me one. drat. but i still love my laptop. the screen's better and i've got a dvd burner! so i've got a very expensive dvd player! but it's my own. take that nc6220. even if you are lighter, smaller, with better graphics card and processor.
no wonder my bank account's nil.
on the good side, even if it depleted my funds even more...
i've taken vacations with my friends and loved ones.
went to boracay with pearl, james, raymond, raymond's friend, raymond's friend's kid (whew!), and mark. last time i went there was with my family(extended), circa 2002. but as they say, boracay's a party place and you can't very well party with your family there, or can you? this year's visit was fun. even if mark and i spent most of the time walking. take note: walking not swimming. methinks we should've gone to the cordilleras knowing my boyfriend's fascination with using his feet. go figure, we're on an island surrounded by water (kaya nga island e!) and he chooses to climb up a mountain! and walk around the island. hay. shempre sama naman ako. methinks i should've just stayed on the beach with pearl and gotten that massage. (in between gasps of breath, i swore i was gonna kill him while trudging up the hill...) the things we do for love... ew! corny
i went back to toronto. when the plane landed i felt like i was, well, back home, or at least in a place where i'm comfortable in. funny, when i got out from customs, there was a throng of people waiting for their loved ones, and i heard one of them say, poor kid, she's all alone, they let her travel alone. well, i must've looked like a little lost girl.
it was great to see family and friends again. i got to see laurie, leonard and sooner. i told them when i get back they'd still better be there. (and there's this sad look on laurie when i mention that. but she's strong, i do hope she'll still be there when i do get to visit again) i got to see my titos and titas, aunts. and i walk around downtown, rediscover my old haunts. even with my poor sense of direction i still found that quaint little bookstore in the university of toronto, and the world's largest bookstore, and chapters and indigo. visited the royal ontario museum, toronto zoo, ontario science center, casa loma, art gallery of ontario, cn tower... watched a play at stanford, cirque du soleil, hahaha. lakas ng loob kong maglakad mag-isa. but they've got a great transport system and it's easy to get around. ang lungkot nga e, masnapupuntahan ko pa yung mga lugar doon kesa dito. when was the last time i went to the national museum? or manila zoo? or any of the museums here? but it's so difficult to go around here. my asthma ain't helping either. what else? went to madawaska (gorgeous place, with the mountains and the trees and the fresh air and the sky, and the bugs!hehe), drove from leonard's backyard to tito kenneth's, drove aunty val's convertible up to the end of the street.spent a lot of time in bestbuy, futureshop and who knows what other computer store. oh yes, went shopping with tita joanne and tita donna,grocery with lola too! movies with aunty baby and tito kenneth. aunty bay and aunty val showing me around, phone calls from aunty popo. hehehe. everyone has been great and extremely generous. i can't thank them enough for their generosity and being sooooo accomodating. i really love my family. :D it was quite difficult to say goodbye to them.
of course, when the plane landed in manila, tears were welling up my eyes because i was also happy to be back home. emotional wreck lang siguro ako. i missed manila, the philippines and its chaos. hahahaha.
then i went to baguio with friends from the company-that-must-not-be-named. yes, mark was there and it was a perfect place for him because as i mentioned, he absolutely adores walking. frankly baguio was a disappointment because of all the pollution. the last time i went there was college and most of the time i spent in mirador which was the highest point of the city and a retreat house. i do love that place, but the city proper, especially with the smog, is entirely another matter. but i did love the company. even if i was not quite well at that time. (sabi na nga kasi nagkasakit nung bagong taon, buong taon maysakit!) photo-ops (i realized just how many pictures was taken of me... kadiri!) in minesview, strawberry fields, the mansion, burnham park, good shepherd (where i got to see a few of my long lost relatives), camp john hay (where some of said relatives were staying, rich sila, poor lang kami), the hotel where we stayed was not too bad. even if their circuits were a bit haywire. who would've thought that the water heater was connected to the aircon?!? buti na lang naisip ko na pinatay ko pala yung switch para doon. sabi nga ni mark, hanggang doon pa ba e nagdedebug kami?!? ruel also had his share of complaints. but all in all, the trip was... exhausting! hahaha. first time i rode that special bus that victory liner has, the one with the cr inside. try using it while going downhill mcarthur(? or was it marcos? i forgot) highway, it ain't an easy feat i tell you!
oo nga ano. last year wala kaming bakasyon ng pamilya. that was getting to be an annual thingy. maybe this year...
yes, financially, the year was not much to speak of but in terms of memories, i've made a lot of new friends and kept the old ones, made big (and difficult) decisions, revisited places, made new memories. got a new job, got two new laptops and a whole set of new headaches.
so now, 2005 has ended. i'm still not feeling too well. bad foreboding for health this year? i hope not. oh well, let's get all the sickness over and done with. but at least... not in debt! yehey. even if my bank account's still nil. i was able to pay off my credit card bills! hip hip hooray! ang galing talaga ng Diyos. He does provide, miraculously. As in, just when i thought i'd have to dip into other funds, He came through. THANK YOU LORD, alam ko kahit na masamang tao ako, binibiyayaan mo pa rin ako. undeserving yes. which is quite humbling.
i vow to save this year. for my trip to europe come 2008 (or by the time i'm thirty depending on my financial status) and retirement funds. was thinking how i'm gonna save enough for those when i will be buying a phone for myself. mark's already asking for his old one back. and i want to take up diving. but to support that hobby i'd need a salary of at least a 100k a month! hahaha. ok. so i won't be taking up diving any time soon. and my barkada's planning our first ever out of town trip to boracay! sana matuloy. and i have to take that out of the country trip to use up my miles. was thinking singapore, cambodia, vietnam, or beijing? ano pa bang ibang lugar na maaaring mapuntahan with 35k miles? ok... looks like memories are the only thing that i'll be saving this year... again! hahaha.
hopefully, this year will be better than the last, as we all continue our journey towards death. ew. morbid. but it just inspires me to live life to the fullest, thanking God for all the blessings that i've received. At sana, ako rin naging biyaya Niya sa ibang tao. Para saan pa nga ba ang ating buhay di ba?
i was browsing through some pictures in my pda and chanced upon my yearbook collage. this is a copy of the poem i made for that.
the other side of dreams
i dreamt of touching the sky, but woke up finding my feet shackled to the ground;
i dreamt of singing the most glorious of melodies but woke up mute, listening to the silence;
i dreamt of eternal youth, but woke up hoping for eternal life;
i dreamt of popularity, but woke up among friends;
i dreamt of serving, but woke up saying Thank You;
i dreamt of making a big impact on everyone's life, but woke up making a difference on someone's life;
i dreamt of solving the world's problems, but woke up drying a child's tears;
i dreamt of doing great things, but woke up finding i can't, not by myself;
i dreamt of dreaming. but woke up believing;
i dreamt that the world was a perfect place, but i woke up... and found reality even better.
i realized how idealistic i was then. i'm wondering where that person is now. i guess she's still here, somewhere inside. but with all the distractions, i don't know if i will eventually lose her.
.. clarification on my previous post, not only efficient but effective as well in serving the interests of the people and the Philippines.
having said that.. rox treated us to dinner last night. it was a sort of send-off/despedida for joe and me.
hmm.. still don't feel like i've actually resigned.
10 things that i will miss from this company. 1. The relatively lax work schedule. 2. Oh look there's a coffee shop and other amusing tales of gonx's ever-colorful love life. 3. Joe's comments on inefficiency and optimization. Kelangan 100% efficient yung code! hahaha. 4. Lester's slavedriving, generosity, intriguing statuses (stati? hahaha), tales of unrequited love. 5. Paul's outrageous hirits... lalo na pag may tama. 6. The craziness that occurs when the clock strikes 10pm over when I was still part of the PRA team. (May utang pa ring sayaw si ice at marc sa akin) 7. Ayala Center being a stone's throw away and the multitude of one-stop shops in one square block. 8. 8th floor lunches. And mommy foxy's generosity, grabe ilang beses din kaming busog na busog nun! 9. Being in the same company with my kabarkada. Instant gimiks, lunch outs, chikahan, ym at kung anu-ano pa. and last but definitely not the least... 10. Teasing mommy foxy and daddy barry. May they eventually realize that they are meant for each other. hehehe.
I went out with some old friends last Saturday. I never imagined I would have that much fun! We went to cena for dinner. At first I thought it was just us girls. Was I ever shocked when I went up the second floor and there were my friends, with two metrosexuals! Ok I wasn’t prepared for that. Especially since I was wearing rubber shoes and I think my shirt had a hole in it. (I just came from badminton you see, and that was an instant invite to spend the night at my barkada’s condo. Independent living … will talk about that some other time)
Medyo wala sa lugar ang kagandahan ko di ba? With matching backpack, ang lola. But aside from the initial awkwardness, read: shock. We got the ball rolling and reminisced. Metrosexual A was an old friend from waaaay back. Metrosexual B was an acquaintance. Pero grabe ang kwentuhan. Highlights… my friend will be featured as a swimsuit model for A’s company. Kahit tagapaypay lang ako masaya na. As long as the food and lodging are free! Hahaha.
So after that we decided to go to Bizu for dessert. B instantly got my backpack from the chair it was sitting on. (Sosyal ang backpack ko may sariling upuan) I tried to take it from him, but he said no it’s ok. Nagulat ako. Sigh. There are still gentlemen in this world. I seem to have forgotten what they look like. (In this instance, he looked incredible! Hahaha. Kasi naman model siya no. I just know how to appreciate good looks when I see it) Ok back to dessert. Sinfully delicious. I just wish they would make some of their fresh blueberry chibousts again… sigh. More chitchat. We were joined by my friend’s blockmate from college.
After that we went to masas for drinks. There were more of my friend’s college blockmates waiting for us there. I didn’t feel like drinking (except for water). I was tired from badminton and I knew I’d get drunk easily. My friend already went out for drinks the previous night. Let’s just say she had one hell of a hangover earlier that day. She just ordered buko juice, B ordered mineral water for me, and the rest had alcoholic drinks. While they were chugging san mig lights, we were guzzling our sissy drinks … ok chugging is a bit extreme. Chikahan galore ulit. How can we stay alcohol-free the whole time you might ask? The answer is we can’t. Both of us had a little shot of tequila. :D Only one. But that was enough to get me tipsy. I couldn’t even pour mineral water on A’s glass without spilling some.
After that A drove us home, rather to my barkada’s condo. We were all tired and a bit buzzed. Kaya hindi na nagchikahan ang mga lola at diretso tulog. The next day les got up bright and early saying we should start cleaning the condo. (Early is 947am) Pearl and I wanted to spend a few more hours in between the sheets. (panget pakinggan! Hahaha) So les started fixing stuff up. The problem is those are pearl’s brother’s stuff. So pearl was going nooo don’t touch those. I was saying that’s his organized mess. He wouldn’t be able to find anything if you clean it up.
Eventually we did manage to get up to go for lunch. Around past 12. We went to cibo at glorietta for lunch. I like their porchetta (and I wonder why I have high cholesterol?!?). Since we had time to kill before we’ll meet li and tans we decided to do some pampering. Of course, they had to do some shopping, too. We went to the salon, me to have my hair cut, them for the footspa. Actually we were looking for another salon but when we got there it seems that the salon has closed and vivere took its place. Kaya dun na lang kami. May libreng threading pa!
Ayun. They had their foot spa. I had a hair treatment. They just put some goo on my hair and scalp and wrapped it in cling wrap. Who knew cling wrap was a beauty essential. Then again, what do I know about beauty stuff? They put me under one of those alien-looking steamers. Or whatever you call it. And I was left to .. er steam? for about an hour. As the guy was rinsing my hair he said, let’s clean your eyebrows. I said, well, ok. I mean it couldn’t hurt right? Besides it was free…
Man was I ever wrong. It did hurt … a lot! I was swearing my head off. If my grandma heard me she’d be bringing out the detergent to wash my mouth with. The guy said, ganyan talaga kung gusto mo magpaganda kelangan mo masaktan. Nyek! Kaya naman pala hindi ako nagpapaganda e. After what seems like an eternity of pain, he was done! With one eyebrow. Sabi ko hindi pa tapos? Di bale na lang kahit hindi pantay kilay ko. I ain’t going through that again! Sige. I may not be that vain, but I don’t think I could walk around with mismatched brows.
So I went under the thread … again. By this time liza was already there and she was holding my hand throughout the procedure. After a lot more cursing, natapos din! Hay salamat. So I am now the proud owner of two cleaned up matching brows … with reddish eyelids. Oh well, nothing’s perfect.
The rest was the haircut and they did some styling. Dumiretso ang buhok ko! Ganun naman talaga parati paglabas ng salon. My friends were going, bagay sa iyo. Magpastraight ka kaya? How many times have I heard that?!? Sabi ko no thank you. Masisira lang buhok ko kasi manipis siya. Anyway, I couldn’t go out with them for dinner, need to have dinner with family since I have an aunt and cousin who’ll be leaving for the states the next day. So we said our goodbyes and I went home.
The next day… I woke up ... with pouffy hair. Oh well… as expected.
can't wait til tom. a group of us girls will be spending the night at shang. seems like ages since i last had a vacation. in reality it was just two weeks back. went to baguio with some folks from the company-that-must-not-be-named. come to think of it, i have taken several vacations already this year, went to boracay last may and toronto, august. but somehow i'm still stressed. must be because im still getting used to the new job. i am in desperate need for another session with our chiropractor. it's been ages since i last visited. methinks it's already been a year! my back's aching again because of my scolio. ewan. hirap ng daming problema ang katawan.
it's 130am and pearl, mon and i are still chatting. are we freakin' crazy or just insomniac? ako sanay na maaga matulog pero parang nung lumipat ako ang maaga ay alas-onse. hay. i miss being with my barkada.
it's 8am and i'm already here in ortigas. shempre parang nawawalang bata pa. jason told me that Q23 would be my landing spot. so i looked for the cube... i didn't have to look too far since it was near the door ... first i saw the window, then i saw the Q23 on the cube beside the window.... my oh my oh my.. i likey like like this new office. so i've got a view of.. megamall. haha. and the street in front of it. what's it called? st. francis? oh and st francis square, if i turn my head 180 (how do you put degrees in this?). wonder why they put me here. shempre naghanap ng rason di ba? siguro sa dami ng trabaho at stress, they thought this was the least they could do. hahahaha. sure. maybe sometime in the future i'd be tempted to throw myself out of the window.
it's been quite a rollercoaster ride these past few days. yep, new job, new people. it's been exciting. imagine meeting individuals from different parts of the world. learning new things. yep, giddy with all the work (ew kadiri)that i'll be doing. i'm a workaholic, see. but now, i just feel.. tired. good tired. but tired nonetheless. actually, got a message that made me realize that i am tired. prior to that i was still filled with adrenaline. after reading it, poof, all the energy just seeped out. seeped is too gradual. give me a nice verb here. oh well. i can't even think. i just feel like crying ... and laughing. go figure. methinks i've gone crazy. sige i'll blog about my first few days at hogwarts some other time. (this is actually the first day that i've spent in the company's premises, the rest were with the client, yes, onsite kaagad. hehe)
true or false, no multiple choice questions please
decisions, indecisions. ok i still haven't come up with a decision on this job offer that i have. well i brought it upon myself. harhar. at least it's just a true or false question and not a multiple choice one. as my boyfriend once told me.. "how come you don't send out your resume to a lot of companies? pagsabay-sabayin mo na kasi. hindi mo kaya multiple choice? pang-true or false ka lang?" i don't think my system could handle that many choices.. hahaha. kung 1 lang nga stressed na stressed na ako, maramihan pa kaya?!?
a few months back i also had an offer from another company. it's a company that's known to be a slavedriver. actually, i never expected to get an offer. let's just say during the interviews, i was, er, brutally frank. but i appreciated my last interview with one of the managers. she was actually discouraging me from working there! that is funny because usually they would say, this is a very good company to work for, yada, yada, yada. i admire and thank her for her honesty. i was also equally open. just goes to show, honesty is always the best policy. ok so some may disagree but this is my blog, go write your own.
when i got the offer, i started fishing around. it was quite easy because i have a lot of friends who work/worked there. you get a mixed bag of reactions. some love it, others, well, not so much. but the training was supposed to be excellent. at this point, i don't need training as much as developing my expertise. plus, they couldn't give me an idea of the project i'd be working on. apparently the group that they mentioned was just a generic pool of developers, from the feedback i was getting, there's no immediate project. ok.. i was never the type who would like to be idle... which is why i'm so frustrated right now because i'm in between projects, twiddling my thumbs. oh and maybe brushing up on my java. so weighing the pros and cons i turned them down.
fast forward to now. there's no problem in making a decision when it's clearly black and white, but when we're talking about wonderful shades of grey... sigh. the difficulty in making this decision is both companies have something very good to offer. although career-wise this new company has a definite edge. on paper, the role and responsibilities seem very, very challenging, as i said i've never backed down from a good challenge. and i've been looking for more challenging tasks lately. again i've been fishing and you hear several conflicting answers. some say that the workload is a killer, some, that it's easier than when they were in the-company-that-must-not-be-named. ok but we must not compare it with said company because, well, in that company the customers are gods. work, slave, work! (don't get me wrong, i've enjoyed working there, again, despite the policies)
so i'm still on the precipice not knowing whether to jump on board another ship or remain in the safety of solid(?) ground. as with any company, you also get to forge relationships with your co-workers. and i will miss working in a team.
... but i am still restless. i guess i've never really felt as comfortable here as i did in my previous job. i am currently looking for that company where i can grow (old?) in. and this new company might be it. i'm still praying for an answer. i do hope i get to make the right decision.
i had my fortune told the other day. i've always wondered what happened in these sessions, besides my tita said that it would be fun. for lack of anything better to do and to satisfy my curiosity, i decided to give it a shot. actually i was there to know about my past life not so much the future. as much as i'm a control freak, i'd rather the future be a surprise. and maybe there's also this fear of knowing... anyway ...
characters in this episode: manghuhula, tita 1 and tita 2
the fortune teller told me to write my name and birthdate down and proceeded to tell me about my traits... here are some excerpts with a running commentary provided by my tita
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(tita 2 typing away on her laptop while waiting for her turn)
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me: hindi po ba kasalanan sa Diyos ang paghuhula?
(tita 1 shaking her head at my audacity with matching disapproving look)
manghuhula: proceeds to explain why it's not
me: aah...
tita 1: naku, pasensya na kayo. hindi po ba kayo na-ooffend kapag tinatanong kayo ng ganyan?
manghuhula: ay hindi naman.
me: my questions were not meant to offend! they were borne out of curiosity, and the desire to understand. that's why i asked them. para maintindihan ko rin at maipaliwanag niya.. kaya nga nagtatanong e. di po ba?
manghuhula: smiles.
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manghuhula: oh you're an arian that means you're very stubborn.
(insert my tita 1 here saying "sinabi mo pa! naku! tigas ng ulo niyan")
me: nodding in agreement
manghuhula: and you have a questioning mind.
(insert tita 1: naku! makulit po yang batang yan! walang ginawa kundi magtanong ng bakit.. tingnan niyo ho hindi pa kayo nagsisimula ang dami nang tanong)
me:(thinking, medyo obvious naman ito)
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manghuhula: your life path shows the high priestess and justice, sayang hindi ka nag-law. sobrang galing mo sanang lawyer/politician.
me: well, it's not too late to change career paths (laughter here)
(yeeeessssss, visions of me lifting this country out of its political and economic quagmire.. vote for me.. vote for me... VOTE FOR ME!)
(ok snap back to reality, i can't even win an argument with my boyfriend, how the heck will i be able to defend life, liberty and justice?!? or however the line goes)
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manghuhula: you're always concerned about what's right and wrong, about being fair, and getting to know both sides before making a decision.
(haaay ... the bane of my existence.. sometimes this trait hinders me from making a decision)
me: pero hindi po ba lahat naman ng tao ganun? (ok so i'm a bit naive .. any problems with that?)
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me: past life na lang po pag-usapan natin. teka, paano po naging ganun na nabubuhay lang ulit ang kaluluwa, e mas konti naman ang tao noon kesa ngayon?
(babatukan na yata ako ng manghuhula sa mga tanong ko. but he was very patient in explaining these things)
manghuhula: ang nakikita ko lang sa ngayon... isa kang indian lady. you were once a very rich and powerful indian woman. of noble birth, i can see you with a headdress, long hair and long gown.
(naks naman! forgot to ask what he meant about indian ... was he referring to the country or the native american indians?!?)
manghuhula: and you have a very old soul.
(insert some time here spend on figuring out how many lives i've actually lived. it turns out that i'm on my 12th life now.. jeez. no wonder i feel so tired)
(now that i think about it, i don't know if i'm supposed to be happy about that. hindi ba ang buddhist --o hindu ba yun?-- na paniniwala e kaya ka na"re-reincarnate" dahil hindi ka matuto-tuto sa buhay?!? tigas kasi ng ulo e.)
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if tita 1 was a franciscan nun, i was a rich and powerful indian lady of some royal blood apparently ..
tita 2: sige ako naman po.. anong nakikita mo sa past life ko..
manghuhula: hmm.. ikaw.. hmm... you were a fat polynesian woman...
fat polynesian woman?!? where did that come from?!?
that cracked me up... hahahaha...
but in fairness she had a very good fortune.. and she has the hierophant and temperance in her life path. kaya pala kung saan-saan napapadala ang aking magaling na tita.
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that was a fun session. i would like to do that again. i guess it also gives an insight into yourself. just don't let it get to your head.
After being an avid blog reader for who knows how long, i finally got on the bandwagon and decided to create my own... ok so now what? what do i write about? for starters, the title.. why cerulean? i love the color blue... although i am not much of a fan of the lighter shades, which cerulean is. ay labo. this is just a tribute to the pc that i left behind in the company-that-must-not-be-named. man, i loved that pc and the lcd screen.. hehe. one of the things that i miss from said company. that, and the people.. definitely the people. as roch said, it seems that first love never dies, or in our case we will still have an affinity for the company that gave us roots. no matter how absurd the policies may be... hehe. it was also a pleasure working with world-class engineers on projects that could only boggle the mind. but maybe i'll blog about that some other time. ok.. so that gave you an idea that i am on my second job in roughly four years. yes, i just celebrated my first anniversary with current company .. and now i'm thinking of moving to another one... some might say i may be out of my mind for even thinking about leaving considering i will be sent onshore come january. personally, i don't relish spending winter in the states (not that i've ever been there)...kung spring lang nga naka-winter coat na ako, winter pa kaya?!? baka hindi na ako makalakad ng tuwid niyan!... still others might say that i'd be insane for staying. see, this other company has provided a very tempting offer. in terms of the role and responsibilities. i do believe it will be challenging and i always love a good challenge. well, and the benefits are definitely better. lately i've been in a bit of a rut. boredom? sigh. only boring people they say get bored. right now that may be true.
